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    June 23

    Confess

    10点半,车里,两个女子。
    收音似有似无,“你用浓浓的鼻音说一点也没事,反正又美又痛才是爱的本质”。
    一听前奏就知道是首“可怕”的曲子:“关掉关掉,失恋的时候最忌讳听这种音乐”。
    “不要,我就要听”。
    “和他真正结束才能重新开始,几年贴心的日子换分手两个字”。
    心里开始酸。刹那间,PH值急速升高,一不小心,挤了两滴眼泪。
    “姐姐,我都还没哭,你怎么说来就来的”
    “没什么啦,我要镜子”(睫毛膏花了会像熊猫一样的)
    她以为是纸巾。破涕为笑“镜子镜子”。作晕倒状,把后视镜转向我。先擦睫毛,然后再是小小的泪痕,立刻整理好自己。从多云转阴,阴转雨,雨转晴,不过一分钟。
    “哎,我安慰你还你安慰我啊”,于是过来抱我。
    没有电视剧一样地歇斯底里哭作一团,只是淡淡地说“真的没什么亚”,大概已经哭不出什么了吧。
    迅速转换话题“那天做到4点,我就在想,要是有个人陪我熬夜,我就嫁给他了”
    “我陪你我陪你”。
    我还沉浸在对男人的幻想中“要男的呀”。
    “姐姐,我这样说你应该感动死了”
    转念一想“嗯,对哦,没男人陪,起码还有女人陪”。那天的申报大谈城市“剩女”,其中写道“作为单身女人,什么都可以没有,但千万不能没有几个闺密……在单身女人心中,这可是最后一个支点”。
     
    不习惯诉说,情绪总是埋藏起,甚至忽略。不小心爆发,也只是黑暗中小猫一样抽泣几声,然后起来找Friends看,然后乖乖地爬回床上,盖好被子,睡觉。心里小小地感激,还有那么份让自己投入的工作,在高贵的楼做卑微的实习生,某次做到凌晨,那也是为自己。于是渐渐淡忘,不记得爱过谁,也不记得被谁爱过。
    她深刻地怀念他的好,并且担心再也碰不到一个让自己如此心动的男人。我却只顾着她那位的种种劣迹,断然劝说“这种男人,早一天了断,早一天开始新生活”,然后开始联系实际“我们不也断了联系,而且我对未来很有信心阿,我相信会碰到更好的男人”。她毫不犹豫、毫无顾忌地戳穿我“那是他没有回来找你,他要是回来,你还不是扑上去啊”。我只好尴尬地笑笑。

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    陈 真wrote:
    亲爱的,你写得真好。Give you a hug and wish a happy life! 
    July 28
    晓晔wrote:
    有些人结了婚以后还不是要离,所以也没资格嘲笑围城外的人.
    要是有人在我熬夜后还接我回家,我这辈子跟定他了,可惜世界上没男人做到这点(起码我是这么认为).
    June 23
    荷盈wrote:
    呵呵,申报那个报道我也看了,不错的,看了之后觉得单身蛮好哈
    女人可以单身,但不能寂寞
    June 23
    毅 程wrote:
    写得真好,都是好的女子,值得有个男人好好疼爱
    June 23

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